Cyndi Weinbaum

Flighty Lady with Crazy Thoughts...

"But oh! The blessing it is to have a friend to whom one can speak fearless on any subject; with whom one's deepest as well as one's most foolish thoughts come out simply and safely. Oh, the comfort - the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person - having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness, blow the rest away. - Dinah Craik 1866
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In a perfect world I could spend all my time doing the things that I love to do. I would also aspire to be the super Woman and Mom that we all dream of being.

As we know the world isn't perfect and I've found that the older I get the harder it is to take the time for reflection and notice the things I need to focus on to make myself a better person. Each year I find that I have grown in a way that bewilders me and I often wonder why I hadn't learned those life lessons earlier. Things happen for a reason. How you react to the circumstance/event is often a learning point. I feel I have learned from my mistakes. I must admit that the mistakes of youth have had much less of an impact on my life than mistakes as an adult. Its what I've taken away from these things that makes me try and want to be a better person.

My grandpa always told me I was super observant and alert. I knew everything that was going on around me and I asked alot of questions. I have a very keen sense of knowing and picking up on subtle things, although many times I keep thoughts to myself - awaiting to see the outcome. As a young rude teen I learned a lesson and I remember turning red in the face and letting the words sink in: "There is beauty in everything Cyndi, you must just look to find it". As an adult I know know that the meaning wasn't as literal as it was spoken, looking isn't always done with your eyes, you can observe w/ your ears and your senses. If you look for the good in things then life is much easier to deal with. Spend time talking about good and the positive energy is contagious. Although I can't remember who taught that lesson to me, I think its the #1 most important lesson I've learned in life to this point.

One's happiness is owned within. Only I can make myself happy. I can't change another person nor can I expect someone to make me happy. One must take ownership and change your own world and outlook and often look within to find happiness.

I'm still searching for the perfect formula to balance my work life and my home life so that there is total harmony.

So until I find complete happiness and harmony, I will continue on being a human - making mistakes and learning from them. Hopefully I will meet and befriend many people like me in the this time we have to enjoy called life.

Cyndi